Submitted by:
Chuck Remsberg, PoliceOne Columnist
The officer who approached
international trainer Brian Willis at a speaking engagement recently is
not unique, unfortunately. He’d shot and killed a suspect who was trying
to kill him—and he was troubled because he didn’t feel any anguish
about it. He worried that that made him “some kind of a psycho.”
“We make a mistake by telling officers that if they kill an offender
they’re going to have emotional turmoil afterward,” Willis says. “For a
long time, we’ve heard statistics quoted about the high percentage of
officers who take a life and then leave the profession because they
can’t cope.
“But research conducted by Dr. Audrey Honig, the chief psychologist
for the Los Angeles County Sheriff’s Department, has proven that’s a
myth. The majority adjust very well after a shooting and are fine with
what they’ve done. Yet by continuing to emphasize the negative
possibilities, we create the expectation that you’re supposed to feel
bad. If you don’t, you question yourself.”
With rare exception, Willis points out, assailants are killed because
they pose a mortal threat to the officer involved or someone else. “In a
critical moment, the officer does what needs to be done and he saves a
life by doing it.
“It’s okay to be at peace with that. It’s okay to be okay.”
He cites the case of an officer who was attacked from behind by a suspect and knocked unconscious.
“When he came to, the suspect was beating him with a flashlight and
had the officer’s sidearm out of its holster. The officer fought
desperately to keep the suspect from shooting him.
“Then he remembered the rescue knife he carried in the trauma-plate
pocket of his vest. He pulled it and slashed the suspect’s throat. Then
he gained control of the gun and shot him dead.
“That officer was roasted in the media for what he did. But he had
this perspective: ‘What I did was lawful, what I did was reasonable, and
what I did saved my life. I can live with that.’ He wasn’t gloating by
any means, but he was emotionally at peace with what he did and how he
did it.”
Willis believes it’s important for officers to hear from trainers,
supervisors, and administrators that it’s okay to be in that frame of
mind after a fatal shooting. “By the same token,” he says, “it’s okay
not to be okay. It is critically important to seek professional
counseling if you are troubled. It’s a courageous sign of strength to
recognize the symptoms of post-traumatic stress and to get help if you
are bothered, rather than destroy yourself, your family, and your
career.”
In training, Willis says, “we tend to dance around the word ‘kill’
and instead just talk about ‘stopping the threat.’ But the reality is
that you may have to take a life someday as part of your duty. And that
moment may be very up close, even at contact range.
“Thinking about that possibility and its personal implications well
in advance can help you achieve the peace of mind afterward that you
will likely deserve.”